A VERY Long Update Continued

There are many reasons to want a relationship, for me, I think ti comes down to 2 main reasons: Love/affection/caring towards each other and sex. Now I know that sounds hypocritical coming form someone who just said they slept around this summer, but it's not the same thing. the thing about relationship sex is it means something more than just physical contact. i should hope that in a relationship, both parties try and please the other person as much as possible. When you one-night-stand it, it doesn't feel the same....more often than not it becomes about the guy and his needs. I miss attention from guys int eh right way, in a meaningful way. Sex in a relationship is not about just one person, at least it shouldn't be. With all the sex I had this summer, it was rare to have it in a bed (and not a park or on a couch because people still live at home - ie sneaking around) and to have a partner who wasn't all about them getting off. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy pleasing my guys, but to have someone be willing to do whatever it takes to make me happy also. Relationship sex is VERY different and I miss it:(.

Now, as for the emotional aspect of a relationship..well I think it's obvious why that would be appealing to me. No one wants to be alone, especially me. I have a lot of love to give and I put my heart and soul into every relationship. I given them everything, maybe even too much sometimes, but I like caring for someone and feeling needed. I like the feeling and the high I get from having someone else love me back and want to be with me. I only hope that I can meet someone who loves and hard and as deep as I do and that any emotions I put forth towards the other person are reciprocated..We'll see what happens....

What else is there to say? A few jot-notes should do it...

- I'm graduating from Carleton with a BA in Mass comm. Convocation is in Nov. I am currently enrolled and partaking in Journalism at Algonquin College and loving it!!! Except for Local Government, but that's another story..lol

- I'm in a wedding party. I'm the Maid of Honour. To be honest, I'm very honoured to have been asked and I graciously accepted, but lately it's been ridiculously stressful. I realize that it's not MY wedding, but i feel that as the MOH, my voice should head over the other bride's maids and lately, it hasn't been, not necessarily by the bride, but rather by some of the other bride's maids... it'll all be over soon. I'm very happy for my friend who is getting married thought:)

- My goals for this semester include doing well in school, meeting new people, meeting more guys, and going to more concerts/shows/events, especially in town if possible.

I think that basically covers it!:P this is a long enough post.. There is more to say, I can for sure elaborate on many points, but now, this is strictly an update. i promise to try and be more attentive to my blog, stay updated on new bands and post as often as possible.

Thanks for reading and ttys :)